Addis Adventures, Faith, Family, Grief, Holly Tacos, Mistletoe Ferdenand, Mistletoe Hymn

Bouncing Back From a Grieving Season

What a year this has been for so many of us. The pandemic hit what seemed LIKE IMMEDIATELY after the new year started, and we have all been left in a perpetual state of uncertainty ever since. Although this year has been filled with so much sickness and loss, it hasn’t all been bad for the Addis Clan.

When the pandemic hit, I was asked to guest teach some of my favorite kiddos on this earth! That was a lot of fun! We talked about the Proverbs of the day and their responses to scripture blew me away – they are wise above their years that’s for sure! Love these kiddos so much!

Darin and I moved in to our new place and THAT has been a blast! We love our new humble abode and have truly enjoyed it so far!

I’ll get pictures of the new place at some point haha…..

Our sweet cousin nephew graduated from high school! What a blast his celebration was. We had spent months quarantined from one another, that it was nice to gather and celebrate with family!

AND Mistletoe and Holly had pups!!! Oh, what a season that was!! She gave birth to ten sweet puppies, sadly one of them did not make it. We named her Summer and buried her under a tree in our backyard. Sweet Summer broke our hearts when she didn’t make it. Seven of these sweet guys went to AMAZING homes and I’m so thankful that I hear from the new owners often. Yes, two of them stayed with us and it has been SO MUCH fun watching Mistletoe and Holly have a little sweet family. It really has been fascinating! BUT WHAT DID WE GET OURSELVES INTO!?!? FOUR giant dogs now! UGH, Lord help us! And NO MORE DOGS…….. I still want a CAT!

Last but not least, we FINALLY officially launched Egret.Work! If you are a mama or a woman wanting to work from home, you have got to check us out!

So, as you can see, God has been SO amazing during this crazy season. I’ve been on a journey of grieving my dad and praying for our country. Even though so much has seemed heavy this year, God has BEEN SO GOOD…….But that is who He is. Is it not? He’s SO full of love and grace, even in our darkest of seasons! And this season, this year……hasn’t been the brightest of years. BUT…..in His infinite goodness, He somehow always seems to make it feel like it could possibly be one of the best years yet. I honestly can’t get over this about Him. How He makes everyday new. How He overwhelms us with NEW mercies every single morning! How His love shines through the cloudiest of days.

The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears, and delivers them out of all their troubles.” Psalm 34:17

Psalm 34:17 says it all y’all! He delivers us. He meets us where we are and brings HIS Heaven onto our earth! Every day, I thank Him for the beauty He bestows upon me every single day. This year hit hard for so many. If you are reading this and you feel alone and wonder if God sees you……. please do know, the He hears you, but not only does He HEAR you….but He DELIVERS you.

I feel like I’m finally stepping out of the grieving season. My heart still hurts. I’m sure I’ll still have days where the loss of my dad hits me like a ton of bricks. Just like I still have days where the losses of our sweet babies we miscarried hits me into next week. But, the grief…..the heavy heavy grief isn’t no where near as bad. I now am able to wake up and embrace the new mercies instead of laying in bed spending moments digging deep inside trying to find those new mercies I knew God gifted me with that day. They were always there, just buried deep deep down inside the broken pieces of my heart. Grief does that, right? It tries to steal your joy, your peace, your new mercies…… just know, that’s not God. God is the one next to you reminding you of love, of His grace, His blessings. That FIGHT that is still in you fighting to get through the day, even with that heaviness weighing on you so heavily, that’s GOD fighting FOR YOU and WITH YOU!

Grief doesn’t have a calendar. You can’t schedule it. You can’t pencil it in to your day. Sometimes it comes out of no where and knocks you off your feet. It’s okay. Go with it. Feel it. Embrace it. MOST IMPORTANTLY, invite God into it with you! Don’t go through grief alone! Know that it doesn’t last forever, and that God wants to see you through to the other side. Do at least one thing normal every day, until you are finally living life again. God knows your heart. He knows your pain. He also knows YOU WILL MAKE IT THROUGH THIS! I promise you! HE promises you!

Grief doesn’t have a calendar. You can’t schedule it. You can’t pencil it in to your day. Sometimes it comes out of no where and hits you like a ton of bricks.

Spend time with God today. Trust Him with your broken heart. Whether it’s the loss of a parent, or the loss of a child or pregnancy, or the loss of a relationship or a job. Grief finds us all at some point in our lives. Nobody is exempt from it. BUT God will meet you right where you are with all of your sorrow. He won’t let you go through it alone!

I’m praying for you! Don’t hesitate to reach out if you would like me to pray with you!

xoxo,

Crystal

Addis Adventures, Faith, Family, Friendship, Infertility, Marriage, Pregnancy Loss

Lessons That Are Coming Into the Next Decade with Me

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The first blog of a new decade! Wow! Isn’t that amazing to think about!? I have Holly cuddled up on one side, Mistletoe cuddled up on the other, hubby is still sleeping in bed and I am sitting here with coffee in hand thanking God for His love and mercy over the last year.

2019 brought us ups, downs and God’s hand all around! So many lessons that if you have time to read, I would love for you to read and tell me what your biggest lesson of 2019 was!

View Post– We moved back home from the Pacific Northwest to Texas. I learned from this move that transition is difficult and that we have to show ourselves grace.
– We lost three babies in 2019: two back to back miscarriages and an adoption that sadly ended in abortion (he was ours the very moment we were asked to adopt him and he instantly became an Addis baby). This particular loss has been a hard one to understand, but I have learned to surrender it to God and accept that we won’t always understand things of this world. I have also learned that these little lives need voices and people to speak up for them when it comes to abortion. All babies are a blessing and have a purpose, we must protect all of God’s children. A pregnancy is a life.
– I also learned that women who have abortions need grace, love and forgiveness. We don’t know why people make the decisions they make, but I DO know that God loves them and will meet her where she is. There will always be love and grace at the cross!
– Darin and I have experienced so much life together that it has bonded us in a way that is completely unexplainable. I have learned that God will gift us with immaculate love and peace when we surrender and focus on Him! Through the ashes and through the pain, He has truly done a good work in our union because we surrender to Him daily.
– I have learned that being a good wife and having a good marriage requires dying to self daily. When both parties surrender to Him and put the other first, amazing things happen in a marriage. I am thankful that Darin and I both get this. (Our marriage isn’t perfect – but man I am thankful for what we have and I am SO thankful for my man!!)
– I have learned that the definition of family is acceptance and loving one another and all the differences that come with another human being. Family should be the people we can just be ourselves with and know there will always be welcoming love.
– I have learned that how we treat family matters – honor should be given to family members, family are the ones who will be there when you need them the most.
– I have learned that laughter is beautiful – I want to do more of it in the next decade.
– I have learned that time is a delicacy and we must be wise with it.
– I have learned that friendship is sacred and should not be taken lightly nor should the word be tossed around. It takes a lot to be a good friend to somebody, the word in itself does not define it. The love, the patience, the concern, the empathy, the laughter, the growing together, the praying for one another and WITH one another, the sisterhood- those things define friendship. I am thankful to have learned this on a deeper level over the last year. I hope to always grow into being a better friend to others.
– I have learned that we must say what we mean and mean what we say. Let your yes be yes and your no be no – to stop being luke warm.

Most of all, I have learned that God is bigger than it ALL, and His love is good!

Happy New Year everybody! Let 2020 be the best year yet! 🙌🏼🎉