Addis Adventures, Faith, Family, Grief, Holly Tacos, Mistletoe Ferdenand, Mistletoe Hymn

Bouncing Back From a Grieving Season

What a year this has been for so many of us. The pandemic hit what seemed LIKE IMMEDIATELY after the new year started, and we have all been left in a perpetual state of uncertainty ever since. Although this year has been filled with so much sickness and loss, it hasn’t all been bad for the Addis Clan.

When the pandemic hit, I was asked to guest teach some of my favorite kiddos on this earth! That was a lot of fun! We talked about the Proverbs of the day and their responses to scripture blew me away – they are wise above their years that’s for sure! Love these kiddos so much!

Darin and I moved in to our new place and THAT has been a blast! We love our new humble abode and have truly enjoyed it so far!

I’ll get pictures of the new place at some point haha…..

Our sweet cousin nephew graduated from high school! What a blast his celebration was. We had spent months quarantined from one another, that it was nice to gather and celebrate with family!

AND Mistletoe and Holly had pups!!! Oh, what a season that was!! She gave birth to ten sweet puppies, sadly one of them did not make it. We named her Summer and buried her under a tree in our backyard. Sweet Summer broke our hearts when she didn’t make it. Seven of these sweet guys went to AMAZING homes and I’m so thankful that I hear from the new owners often. Yes, two of them stayed with us and it has been SO MUCH fun watching Mistletoe and Holly have a little sweet family. It really has been fascinating! BUT WHAT DID WE GET OURSELVES INTO!?!? FOUR giant dogs now! UGH, Lord help us! And NO MORE DOGS…….. I still want a CAT!

Last but not least, we FINALLY officially launched Egret.Work! If you are a mama or a woman wanting to work from home, you have got to check us out!

So, as you can see, God has been SO amazing during this crazy season. I’ve been on a journey of grieving my dad and praying for our country. Even though so much has seemed heavy this year, God has BEEN SO GOOD…….But that is who He is. Is it not? He’s SO full of love and grace, even in our darkest of seasons! And this season, this year……hasn’t been the brightest of years. BUT… His infinite goodness, He somehow always seems to make it feel like it could possibly be one of the best years yet. I honestly can’t get over this about Him. How He makes everyday new. How He overwhelms us with NEW mercies every single morning! How His love shines through the cloudiest of days.

The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears, and delivers them out of all their troubles.” Psalm 34:17

Psalm 34:17 says it all y’all! He delivers us. He meets us where we are and brings HIS Heaven onto our earth! Every day, I thank Him for the beauty He bestows upon me every single day. This year hit hard for so many. If you are reading this and you feel alone and wonder if God sees you……. please do know, the He hears you, but not only does He HEAR you….but He DELIVERS you.

I feel like I’m finally stepping out of the grieving season. My heart still hurts. I’m sure I’ll still have days where the loss of my dad hits me like a ton of bricks. Just like I still have days where the losses of our sweet babies we miscarried hits me into next week. But, the grief…..the heavy heavy grief isn’t no where near as bad. I now am able to wake up and embrace the new mercies instead of laying in bed spending moments digging deep inside trying to find those new mercies I knew God gifted me with that day. They were always there, just buried deep deep down inside the broken pieces of my heart. Grief does that, right? It tries to steal your joy, your peace, your new mercies…… just know, that’s not God. God is the one next to you reminding you of love, of His grace, His blessings. That FIGHT that is still in you fighting to get through the day, even with that heaviness weighing on you so heavily, that’s GOD fighting FOR YOU and WITH YOU!

Grief doesn’t have a calendar. You can’t schedule it. You can’t pencil it in to your day. Sometimes it comes out of no where and knocks you off your feet. It’s okay. Go with it. Feel it. Embrace it. MOST IMPORTANTLY, invite God into it with you! Don’t go through grief alone! Know that it doesn’t last forever, and that God wants to see you through to the other side. Do at least one thing normal every day, until you are finally living life again. God knows your heart. He knows your pain. He also knows YOU WILL MAKE IT THROUGH THIS! I promise you! HE promises you!

Grief doesn’t have a calendar. You can’t schedule it. You can’t pencil it in to your day. Sometimes it comes out of no where and hits you like a ton of bricks.

Spend time with God today. Trust Him with your broken heart. Whether it’s the loss of a parent, or the loss of a child or pregnancy, or the loss of a relationship or a job. Grief finds us all at some point in our lives. Nobody is exempt from it. BUT God will meet you right where you are with all of your sorrow. He won’t let you go through it alone!

I’m praying for you! Don’t hesitate to reach out if you would like me to pray with you!



Addis Adventures, Family, Fertility, Grief, Her Soul Purpose, Infertility, Marriage, Pregnancy Loss, Pregnancy Loss Grief, Seasons

Dear Ezra, I love You

Today is always a tough day for me. It is the due date we were given with our firstĀ  pregnancy. I was only five weeks along when we miscarried, but I knew in my heart the second we found out we were pregnant that we were having a boy. When I was going through the healing, a pastor that was helpingĀ  me through encouraged me to name him. Darin and I came together and chose the name Ezra.

Ezra is on my heart and mind daily. I never held him, but BOY did I LOVE HIM! He has been such an integral part of my purpose and God’s plan for my life. If I could hold his little hand and tell him thank you today, I would. He changed and continues to change my life.

This week, I released a LOT of things in my life. I realized a few weeks ago that I wasn’t living the mature and responsible life that I always hoped I would as a mother. There have been a lot of areas in my life that have continued this very immature and childish way of living. As I sat down this week, I began to think about ways I would want my life to be had we had Ezra as a three-year-old.

For one, I would hope we would have been in a forever home that was ours and a place for him to grow up in. Two, we would want to be debt free so that we could make sure we had money for college and all of the things he needed as he grew up. Three, that I would be emotionally healthy and stable – that I would handle disappointments and failures a little bit better than what I have. So, I wrote these three things down and I wrote out all the changes that needed to happen in order to give Ezra the good home he deserved and I released the mindset that was keeping me from having that stable and beautiful home for him.

Dear Ezra, I love you. Since the day I lost you, you have continued to grow and challenge me. The very thought of you inspires me to want to be a better wife, future mother and overall better human. Our home is getting in order and I have you to thank. You teach me in ways I can’t even explain. You aren’t here on earth to see your Dad and I make a better life for you, but I hope you are looking down at us and proud of your mama and papa. Everything we do is for you and your siblings! We love you baby boy!

Love Always,

Mama C